If there's one thing I need to say, I'll say it.
I know what I did on Friday was wrong. I admit it. I'm sorry.
Cause of my short circuit memory, I didn't call you to tell you.
It's fine to scold me about that.
BUT it's
NOT fair for you to just scold me on what happened today
without asking me to explain.
Look, I wasn't even the
ONE who said that function was going to end at 9 pm today!
Well, fine; I'll not point fingers.
Still, I did reply. I did say I'll find someone; but it was in the middle of a talk;
how was I supposed to ask around then?
FINE; at 15 minutes to 9 pm, I was wondering when the talk was going to end.
But I couldn't tell/call/sms because again; I didn't know the agenda and I didn't have the answer.
For sure when I say I'll be late, you want the time frame.
How was I supposed to give you the time frame when I don't even know when is it?!
And you want to tell me off?
What, being disrespectful?
Geh; didn't I called you the moment I could?
I'm sorry it was 1 hour later, but that was the earliest time I got!
And after that; you didn't agree to the transportation, so I went back to clarify and found out it was my misunderstanding... and
I CALLED YOU TO TELL YOU.
Cause I don't want to disrupt your dinner. What did you say?
"Oh no, don't bother other people. I'll come."
So that you can scold us on the way back? ARGH!!
Then you can't say that you're worried sick, you were working the whole day and had to send us back.
Like, honestly, why do you even say that and then use it to scold us?!
If I could use a swear word, it'll enter right here.
And sometimes, I wished you could read my thoughts and understand. I do think of you. Tired you, come back from work. You want your weekend off. Do you know that tomorrow there's another session, but I thought you DON'T want to come out from the house or have other RELAXING plans for yourself, that I turned it down?
Fine, maybe I was selfish too that I didn't want to go. But YOU came first in my head.
And now you say I don't think of you. HMPH.
I don't know what to say.
And another thing:
It was your choice to go clean the house. Yes, some of the chores I'll only do if you tell me to.
But not washing clothes. I JUST woke up and then you tell me to wash clothes... when I JUST finished brushing my teeth.
You didn't give me a chance to do it by myself, and then you use it as an argument? *chokes*
If it's true that you need to tell me to wash clothes before I do it, then who is it that washes the clothes during the weekdays?
Our house's maid? Oh wait, we don't have a maid.
And while I wish I could tell all this to your face, I couldn't. Because if I had to be
*respectful* I can
NOT talk back.
That damn stupid thin
line between explaining and answering back makes me think twice before I can say something.
And when I say something;
YOU ALWAYS TAKE IT
THE WRONG WAY.
Which is why I never open my mouth to tell you these.
And you will never know about it.
And I hate this situation.
What's really upsetting is that, I have a reason for this "mistake"... but you will never know about it.
-signing off.